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By secretz01, February 3, 2012 10:47 pm

So I’m no stranger to mixed up friendships, I’ve always had a tough time with them… that’s no secret, honestly I’ve always had a tough time with relationships. They are things, I struggle with… Some things come easy, for me talking to people, nurturing a relationship, keeping things light… those are all things that I have a hard time with. I am a girl who has never had one real BFF, I’ve had many… I go thru them like water, I have a new one all the time… well not so much anymore. As you get older friendships are harder to find, you loose touch with people, you grow up to have different interests, people move away, there are so many reasons why friendships fall apart.

I have always wanted a BFF, but it’s always alluded me, I’ve been the third wheel in a trio BFF group, I’ve been the dumped BFF for someone way more cool, I’ve had a weird boy, girl BFF (whatever that was)… But I’ve never really been that person, that someone picks first… Don’t feel bad for me… I’m okay.

But, I have always wanted to be, I’ve probably tried hard, too hard at times, to make this happen, (insert creepy BFF stalker music here) someone I could share secrets with, someone I could go get pedicures with, someone to see girlie movies and have sleepover parties with, but it never happened.

Now I find myself much older, and still longing for that person, I have had relationships that have changed for the better, some for the worse. As you get older it just becomes increasingly difficult to find friends, forget about the hunt for a BFF.

But, there is hope out there… while looking at one of my favorite blogs I stumbled on Rachel’s MWF seeking BFF blog, and there’s a book too… Her journey to find her own BFF, after moving to a new city with her husband is one of the most inspirational journeys and helpful insight into all things friendship, it’s a must read. I love the way she wanted something, so she made a plan to go out there and get it.

I particularly liked her post on mom’s and non-mom friends, as that is a situation I have been struggling with for a few years now. But, more about that another time.

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By secretz01, February 2, 2012 11:19 pm

Everyone has moments of doubt… even people you admire (or envy)…

I was lucky enough to have mastered enough skill to get into a very good art school, as an illustration major, but after the first few months I wasn’t quite sure why they had picked me. Although I had been running with the other successful artists in my high school, even attending a prestigous summer program, in which you had to be picked with a portfolio of work and “potential”. After the first few months of art school I quickly learned there were many other artists that had far more potential, it was very discouraging, and although I didn’t give up on my artistic career entirely, I did move out of illustration into a field that I thought would be better suited to my limited skill level, and potential. I had gone to college not quite sure of how I would make a career out of what I was learning, not really sure what a success goal would be… I hadn’t ever known anyone to make a career out of being creative, I had seen how you could make a career out of something you were passionate about, that it would require sacrifice to have a job you enojoyed, but that it was possible. So after the dissappointment of not being “good enough” to be an illustrator, I decided to do something else, but even now I find myself feeling like I missed out, like I gave up on myself.

So I was surprised when the other day I read an interview about a successful children’s book illustrator, she said her biggest regret was giving up on a dream she once had.

I just thought to myself, I would love to have the career she has, be doing what she does, that was my dream. That’s something that really makes me think, and it’s also a regret I don’t want to live with so I’m gonna do my best to get back to the drawing board, because you are never too old to make your dreams come true.

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By secretz01, January 11, 2012 11:03 pm

My cousin was staying with me over the weekend, and she just finished her first semester of college, and she really is enjoying her life right now. I can’t help but be a little envious of all the things she still has ahead of her, all the new friends and guilt-free mistakes, all the boyfriends, even the difficult things… I can’t help but find myself whimsically wishing I could go back 10+ years or so… Adulthood is something not everyone is equally prepared for, and I often feel like I’ve been stumbling along for years. Always being the bridesmaid and never the bride, having a hard time finding a career, struggling when my husband lost his job… the list could go on…

So when she looks at my adult life and says things like, “Your so LUCKY you have your own place to live, you have a NEW car, I wish I was married, and I’ve never left the country, I wish I knew what career I should choose”… it went on and on all weekend. It really made me see what I have accomplished in the past years, and how you always think your life will be better when… or your life was so great when… The truth is your life is GREAT now, you just have to be more mindful of it.

It’s very easy now to get so caught up in your daily routine, and we all multi-task so well, but the problem with all this ROUTINE and MULTI-TASKING is we never really realize what we are doing and we later feel like we haven’t accomplished anything. Take this blog for example, I complain that I never have anything to write, I feel like everything I have to say isn’t interesting… so I don’t write, I just wait until I have something really epic to write about, though I don’t live an epic, celebrity lifestyle. Later, I get upset when reading other blogs… and they have written about similar events and emotions, and they have a record of feeling that way—I kick myself!

So that’s my first resolution for this year, to be more mindful of my moments, to take more family photos and to write more in my blog… to make everyday somehow count.

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By secretz01, November 17, 2011 3:43 pm

So if any of you are anything like me, you take on too much during the few weeks between Thanksgiving and Christmas… trying to pack in projects, baking, decorating, holiday trips, visiting family and friends, cooking, shopping and can’t forget working… maybe even a weekend of illness or snow. Before you know it you’re falling behind on everything, and feeling a little too baa-humbug! You made this special time of the year, a nightmare… and you start asking yourself… why do I like Christmas Again??

Well every year I vow that next year, I wont take on as much, we will visit friends and family into January… I’m not gonna worry about missing out on things as long as myself and my family are enjoying the season. Although, I know some people start shopping and preparing for this holiday sometimes months in advance… sometimes too much time just adds additional stress, and you can’t shop too early because of return policies, but sometime in November is a good time to get a jump start on the holiday planning, and make those couple weeks in December a little more enjoyable.

1. Get Your Holiday Plans Sorted Out
Negotiating through the family and friends obligations at that time of the year can be tricky… If you are traveling you should try and iron out any plans early so you can book accommodation or train/plane tickets over the holiday period, there will be more availability early (you can actually start this step in early summer). If you are not traveling too far for the holidays, you should make a list of all the potential meet and greets, and try and schedule, only close friends and relatives for the 2 week prior and the 2 weeks following the actual holiday. Maybe plan a friendly get together for friends the first weekend in December… for kids and adults, you can exchange gifts or not and spend some quality time before the craziness sets in. Also maybe setup an additional lunch date in January to reflect on everyone’s holiday plans and make sure to bring the pictures, so no one feel they have miss out! You can also do this with coworkers, or distant cousins… even those Facebook relations you’ve been wondering how you will see in person! Also make sure to include some alone time for yourself, and for your family, although it’s great to have family and friends to share special occasions with, sometime some personal, or just-family time will make the time more of a lasting memory and even a holiday tradition (we can talk about traditions in another post).





2. Put Some Money Aside: It’s a funny thing: we know that Christmas is coming, every year, and yet many of us still end up struggling to pay off credit card debt in January. If you start saving up just a few dollars a week now, the cost of Christmas won’t hit nearly so hard. 



   Ways to make sure you really do save that money include:

   • Putting it into a specific bank account (this is what I do, but I do it all year so by the end of the year I have a little extra to not have so much stress about the financial burden of presents, decorating and traveling. I usually don’t even notice the monthly donation to my holiday savings)
   • Buying gift cards for stores which you’ll do your Christmas shopping in: this makes it much harder to spend your savings than if you kept them in cash! Let’s be honest, you always shop in the same stores anyway… because they take easy returns!
   • If you are one of those people who just can’t save, which used to be me… I used to pay my bills for November and December in advance, so that money for the month would go to holiday shopping.





3. Decorating List and Supplies
Who doesn’t like holiday decorations, but they can be very time consuming, searching for new ones, putting up old ones, searching for the perfect tree skirt… you get my point. My advice is, to make a list of the very most important decorations you have, what you hope to have for the year… be specific… keep in mind the amount of space you have to decorate and the amount of storage you have when the decorations ultimately come down again. Once you have your list sort what you have, what you need and what you would like… get rid of any decorations you wont use… and start looking for what you’ll need to complete your vision. I’ve come across several adorable decorating blog sites with great ideas for any home. Also, on your list add the wrapping supplies, holiday cards, and gift bags and tags, and don’t forget the boxes & bows… so you can stock up while these things are plentiful and at bargain prices. If I had the space I would buy some of these items after the holiday and keep them for next year… but only if you have the storage.





4. Baking & Cooking Supplies
I love holiday cookies, and I enjoy baking… what I don’t enjoy is grocery shopping, especially when you are fighting over the last back of chocolate chips… My advice for this is… get what you can early… stock up on chocolate chips and flour, sugar and other cooking and baking needs. Make a Holiday Recipe book, with an ingredients list for each recipe… use post-it notes to check off what you have and what you need… make sure to get what you can by third week in November, that’s when ingredients will become sparse. I like to do my baking a few weekend during the month of December, because no matter how early I make those cookies, I’ll be making them again a few days before… but fortunately I wont have to shop first!





5. Keep A Gift List
Some people are tricky to buy for: perhaps they have few hobbies or interests, or they seem to already have everything. Everyone has difficulties thinking up what to get for different relatives and friends. An easy solution to this is to jot down gift ideas all year round, when someone mentions a particular book, CD, home accessory, etc that they’d like, make a note of it. Keeping an idea list is helpful because it also gives you ideas for what you may need and overlooked, so when someone asks you what you are hoping for you’ll be all ready to give them ideas. Just make sure you don’t give everyone the same ideas! Once you have a few items for people, mark the list once you start shopping so you keep an eye on who you still need something for, and who has been checked off.

   A list, is a good way to keep your costs down during holiday shopping, as you can wait until items go on sale… take advantage of those early shopping bargains. Many people are putting needs above wants these days even for gift giving ideas, so listen for something your friends and family members are missing, or could make their lives a little better. Maybe they need bigger priced item, try chipping in for a larger family gift, or a gift card to help them with the purchase.

I must say that after writing this post, I have a few things on my to-do-list, but it’s making me excited to start a new lovely holiday season… Just a little personal note… I am very much in favor of online shopping, it’s a great way to beat crowds and manage time… as you can shop online when you get home from work… while the store are closing down. Just make sure you give yourself enough time for shipping and accidents… but, pay attention to exchange and return policies… because shipping can get expensive. Many store offer free shipping, or in-store returns.

Happy shopping, decorating and holiday preparation, Everybody!

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By secretz01, March 16, 2011 7:25 pm

I often have problems thinking of things to write about, I’m not a natural writer, I’ve never been any good at it… so why would someone who is a self-proclaimed non-writer start a blog, I’m not sure… I guess I was looking for something personal to do with my time, something that would help me with my own quest for personal growth.

I am a very sensitive person and I take things very personal, but I’m not very aggressive so after awhile I start to let things really eat away at my insides, and since I can’t afford therapy, although I’m sure it would help, I decided to start a blog… This blog is meant to be personal but it’s also a secret, so it’s anonymous… maybe some day I’ll feel strong enough to come out of the closet… I do find myself thinking about it sometimes, but then I think about the posts I’ve written about specific people in my life and realize well that’s best left unknown.

I know that the chances of anyone finding my words are slim, like people who dated and live in manhattan, you could go your whole life not running into them as long as you don’t live in the same neighborhood or favor the same takeout places. Who really cooks in NYC, that’s why there are so many restaurants… did you ever see the girls on sex in the city cook a meal… sushi doesn’t count!

Anyway back to my point if I had one, I have been looking for topics to write about, I figure if I have a focus well maybe I’ll be better at posting. Here are my first 5 topics:

1. Last book you read
2. Your favorite things right now
3. Procrastination
4. Something you would change about yourself
5. Your favorite musician

Okay so look for these posts in the near future… So who has some post ideas what do all of your post about?

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By secretz01, January 11, 2011 12:16 am

I don’t know about all you other winter birthday people out there, but I’ve always had some disappointment in having a winter birthday, and with the potential of another 10 inches of snow this week… I am very upset that the cleanup could interfere with my precious celebration of my birthday!

It’s gonna be my birthday in a few days, and I can’t tell you the anxious feeling I always get around my bday… I panic about making plans, I panic if I don’t have plans!  On top of Jack frost routinely dropping cold, white stuff all over my birthday weekends over the years, I wish I could have been one of those winter babies that love snowboarding & ice skating…. I’m a pretty severe asthmatic, and I can’t really stay out in the cold very long at all before it becomes just impossible for me to breath. (I know I saw that asthmatic climb everest on that reality TV show too… but believe me he’s the exception not the rule!) Anyone with a winter birthday will tell you… they’ve had their fair share of weather related tragic birthday stories… obviously I have a few of my own, otherwise I wouldn’t be writing this post…

But this year, I’m not making any plans… nothing to be all nervous and anxious about… I have my husband to spend the day with and I took off that day and the next to have a nice long 4 day weekend, which I really hope wasn’t a complete waste with the predicted forecast, but we’ll have to see… Maybe next year I’ll plan a trip for my birthday to somewhere without the potential for snow.

(image from cutest website http://www.wildrosestudio.co.uk)

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By secretz01, December 2, 2010 11:30 pm

Okay so we all have them, I’m sure a few of us may be them, but regardless this time of the year can be stressful for people who have to buy holiday gifts for their managers or bosses. After my post last year about Holiday gift ideas for couples, I figured I would give a few suggestions on what to get your manager or boss for the holidays.

I’ll tell you that I didn’t used to take this specific gift exchange to seriously, mostly because I wasn’t there long enough to run out of the old generic stand-by gifts like chocolates and photo albums. However, as I’m going on year 5 at my current employer, I find this year particularly difficult. I also have to confess that from previous years gifts I feel a certain amount of anxiety, about picking something that my manager will need or use, he’s a bit of a nightmare with gifts actually.

Let me give you a little advice “Mr. Manager” if someone is thoughtful enough to go in search of a gift for you, even if you don’t like chocolate (btw – who doesn’t like chocolate) you should say, “Thank you, that was so thoughtful… I hope you and your family have a great holiday!” NOT: Um… Thanx… but I really don’t like chocolate, I guess I’ll find someone to give it to…” How would I know you didn’t like chocolate (again who doesn’t like chocolate) you never mentioned it, I don’t watch what you eat from the vending machine, and technically you weren’t even my manager yet… okay so obviously I am holding in some deep resentment over that particular situation.

Honestly what makes the situation worse, is the fact—this is a fact! That you “Mr. Manager” go the afternoon of the last day of work before holiday break to get gifts at the local superstore, getting gifts for all the people who have been given you gifts all morning. We know you didn’t leave them at home, or they didn’t get lost in the mail. I do hope that you all have a better, and more thoughtful manager then myself.

On to the real point of this post—Holiday gift ideas for your Boss or Manager.

So I’ll start with a few of my favorites,

1. Harry David Pears – this was a real hit with my “I don’t like chocolate manager” I really went in the opposite direction, sweet healthy food… who would have thought! They are delicious.
2. Godiva Chocolates – I like this one because no one wants to spend that money on candy, but when someone else does it tastes so good!
3. Holiday gift basket – this was a big hit one year, I included a few Holiday music CD’s, and movies, some hot chocolate mix, marshmallows, and winter coffee mugs, carmel popcorn, and a tin of homemade holiday cookies. You could also add gloves and a hat or a nice bottle of wine or liquor.

A couple more gift giving ideas for your boss or manager:

• Gift certificate to restaurant – This is a can’t go wrong gift idea, who doesn’t love eating out, and gift cards and such are all the rage as they are easy and don’t have long lines. I’m gonna go with this one this year!
• Tech accessories – a handsfree cellphone unit for inside the car, and coffee cup warmer, maybe even one of the cordless docking stations. People just love these little gadgets but sometimes can’t bring themselves to buy them, so make the choice for them.
• Food gifts – a gift basket from Starbucks, complete with a coffee mug, or an ice cream sundae set, a stay at home movie gift basket with popcorn and DVD’s, or a picnic basket with wine and cheese.
• Personalized gifts – I don’t mean an engraved pen or business card holder. I mean something that you are passionate about that you can share with your manager. Maybe you like photography, take a picture you think would look nice in their office, and frame it. If you like to sew maybe an apron or a quilted throw blanket.

And if you still need more help finding a gift for your manager or boss, check out these gift giving websites…
http://www.gifts.com/christmas

ten gift ideas for your boss

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By secretz01, November 15, 2010 3:22 pm

With a long relationship comes more baggage, and how often do you really look inside those bags… you just keep dragging them along, and piling more inside, adding a bag here and there, it’s inevitable that all that baggage effects your relationship… and the bad baggage always outweighs the good stuff… you loose the good baggage sometimes, but that bad baggage always stays with you piling up. This weekend we went thru our bags again, not just the overnight one that we rummage thru regularly, but the big stuff, that’s been weighing us down for awhile…

For the past several months I’ve been thinking about how I wish I could go back in time, how I wish I could do things over… how I’m so upset about the way my adult life has turned out… how unhappy I am with myself, and who I’ve become. I have been taking on much of the blame myself, but I’ve also been blaming much of this on my husband (not out loud of course—but that little voice in my head) has been using him and our relationship as an excuse for my unhappiness.

I know and have expressed over and over again that our timing couldn’t have been worse… after all we met in college, just on the brink of actual adulthood, when we’d have to take care of things ourselves, right when our lives were becoming complicated anyway…. I always thought it would have been easier to do all that stuff with someone, over the past few months, on reflection I was feeling and telling myself that it would have been easier alone… that I could have done a better job without him, or with someone else. I feel guilt writing that, because I know it’s not true…

So after weeks and months of these pent up feelings, it all kinda came out… how disappointed I am with our lives, and how long it seems to be taking us to get somewhere, and when we do get there, it’s nothing like we expected and seems to be a more miserable place then before. I told him how I feel like I can’t be my true self, and how I’m tired…

• Tired of not being Real, hiding who I really am in order to appease him (I like stuffed animals and pink, I enjoy going to zoo’s—even if we’ve been there 10x before!)
• Tired of loosing arguments or just giving in (honestly this one stopped awhile ago, but now I’m tired of always arguing because I don’t give in all the time)
• Tired of all the waiting; to get good paying jobs, waiting to get engaged, waiting to get married, waiting to buy a house… waiting… (honestly, my patience is gone)
• Tired of feeling like we’re forever falling behind, not living up to everyone’s expectations, tired of not living up to his…

I told him I didn’t want to keep looking back and wishing I could do things over, that 5 years ago if I knew… I would have done things different… that after everything that has happened and how hard things have been, that I wouldn’t want in 10 years from now, from Saturday… for me to be saying “I wish I had left, I wish I had done something else, it wasn’t too late then but now,” I’m 10 years older, 10 years more unhappier… 10 years… more wasted!

He responded to my attacks with his own aggression, and disappointment, he expressed his frustrations about feeling trapped and oppressed. His tiredness of waiting, and feeling like things weren’t perfect enough, that I was never happy, and he just wished things could be simple.

He was surprisingly calm, working thru the solution to our problem (my problem) telling me he would move out, and I could move out, we could take a break be ourselves again, see what would happen… have a trial separation, or a divorce, after all it wasn’t like we hadn’t given this situation a try… there were no tears, no yelling! I felt a bit guilty, I thought this would have been harder also, something else to make me tired… I meant my words, I was tired, and frustrated, I hadn’t threatened to leave, making an empty promise, after all I was thinking that was what I wanted… what I had been planning for…

We sat there on the bed, both of us… not knowing what to do, how to make things better… (that was it we didn’t say much else)

I realized once he said it… that a separation wasn’t what I wanted, or needed… but that it was me, I don’t know who I am, I feel lost and frustrated, and I have no one to blame but myself.

I didn’t want to be with someone else, I don’t really want to start over (although I might if given the option) our lives have changed alot over the past 11 years, many things we have always depended on have disappeared, many of the things we enjoyed as youngsters are gone now. We are getting older, I am getting older, things change people grow up, and although I’ve said those words many times, I didn’t notice the little changes, until they hit me in the face! I never notice the details just the big picture… and while all the details were changing around me… it seems like everything happened all at once.

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By secretz01, October 28, 2010 1:04 pm

I tend to take things personally, I’m very sensitive, and I’m not sure why but, I’m very hard on myself… I feel like everything is my fault, even if it’s not, I feel like I’ve always done something to be the cause of the negative things that happen around and to me. I always feel like I should have done more with the opportunities I was given, and that even though in my heart I did the best I can, my head keeps saying I messed everything up. That it’s all my fault, that I’m a mean girl, who has no feelings for anyone, and that I’m selfish and it’s no wonder I have no friends, family and I feel like a failure.


I don’t think any of that is Really true… but I can’t help that deep down I feel that way, I hate myself, I hate who I was and who I am now… but I’m not sure how to change anything, and I’m not sure what I should be doing differently, to feel okay with myself, and my situation. It could be so much worse, I want to turn around these feelings, and be a happy person, someone who feel healthy and important (even if only to myself) I want to forgive myself for all the things I feel I’ve done badly with, I want to start over… I just don’t know how?


I often feel like so many of the problems I deal with in my adult life are all just leftover things from my childhood… honestly I didn’t have any good role models for dealing with feelings or relationships… maybe it’s just something people didn’t do… and that’s why everyone needs psycho therapy now… I wish I had learned as a child or even young adult how to successfully deal with emotional problems. When I was young I had an eating disorder, but I never got treatment for it, once I went to college it sorta eventually went away, once my emotional problems went dormant for awhile.


When I was a girl in high school, I had emotional problems with friends and boyfriends, I had a hard time maintaining relationships and learning where my place was. I didn’t think people liked me, I didn’t think I had control over my own life, I was over parented and just lost. During this time, I did develop a eating disorder, I would go days without eating, and I would punish my feelings with food, I didn’t know how to handle my emotions and my feelings of anxiety and disappointment. Like I said I didn’t get help, I worried everyone in my life… who noticed (not everyone did)… but when I went away to college, things got better. I went to a school where I didn’t know anyone, I just started over… and things were a lot better, I didn’t feel anxiety or disappointment, people liked me, and it took me a few years to mess everything up again. Eventually, college ended, and I moved on… my disorder didn’t show up again for awhile.


I never learned how to deal with conflict and emotional stress, I still don’t manage my emotions very well, I don’t blame myself for that, as I have no idea how to manage that, I was never given any life skills to deal with those feelings. Now, after many years I find those old feelings coming back, I am in a difficult position, I feel helpless and anxious, I feel like everything I had is falling apart. I’ve been eating less, and feeling hopeless… I need to learn to be okay with myself, to like who I am, to do the best I can, and to feel okay with that effort. I can’t control others feelings or reactions.


I need to feel accepted, and I’m tired of waiting for others to give me that feeling… I need to learn to give myself that feeling. If I am Happy with me… That’s what matters!

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By secretz01, October 22, 2010 3:02 pm

Personal growth and improving one’s self identity and image, I’m not talking about changing my clothes or my hair color, or trying to hang out with the mean/cool girls at school… I mean growing up and learning that for whatever reason, you are lost… that you don’t think you’ve ever had a good sense of self identity, and you really don’t know where to start… that you are disappointed in yourself, for not growing and learning inside as much as you learned about math, science and social studies. I envy people who know who they are, and are braze enough to be themselves… I worked so hard to be like everyone else, I don’t thing I know who I am.

Your personal identity is the way that you see yourself… It is very important to you because it will affect the way you feel about yourself and how you behave in challenging situations.  Your personal identity includes:

Exercise in finding your Personal Identity…

Who are you? I’m creative, crafty and artistic, I don’t like to hurt other people – I have a huge sense of guilt. I crave attention but enjoy challenges, I like to help people, but can be very opinionated at times. I like to be right, I take things very personal, and I’m a little too sensitive. Oh, yeah I’m a Capricorn!

• What makes you unique? That I can’t answer this question… frustrates me, my first response is “I wish I could ask someone else?” But I think I am unique when I let myself be, by my ability to grow and be compassionate, I am very empathetic and loyal. I’m sensitive, and helpful and I really care deeply for my personal relationship… no matter how good or bad they are!
• What are your values? I wan to be a kind and thoughtful person. I want to take the high road on most occasions but stickup for myself when I feel I’m being wronged. I also what to let things go, and not feel extensive guilt over things I can’t control.
• Your physical identity (what you think you look like to others) I’m a tad overweight, and very short which only emphasizes the weight problem. I’m pretty, could be pretty without the weight issues, and I have really great skin. I’m getting old enough to feel like I’m getting older in all the wrong ways, but have always looked extremely young for my actual age.
• Your internal identity (who you think you are in terms of your personality and character, values etc.) I think I am a pessimist, I tend to look on the hopeless and victimizing side of things. I’m loyal and friendly, but can be moody and unpleasant, I hold grudges and hardly ever give second chances, I probably expect too much from people. I am very authentic and say what I mean, I probably hurt people without realizing it.
• How you see yourself in relation to others. I probably judge myself pretty harshly, and I always think things are more fault when problems arise. I feel lonely and like I have very little support in my corner. I often think people could stop accepting me, and that often influences my choices in life.
• How you identify yourself in terms of your job. I enjoy my career, I think I have many positive actions and responses at work. I have a creative outlet and chose a career skill set that I am happy and good at. I sometimes get bored and feel I could use more inspiration or challenges. I sometimes feel overwhelmed but overall feel my career is a good reflection of my personal self.
• Your personal goals I haven’t made goals for myself in awhile, I feel lost and unsure of my path in life, all the time feeling like my time is fleeting. I’m disappointed with my lack of aspiration, and direction… and would like to feel like I’m more affectively reaching my potential. I’d like to be happy with some great supportive people as friends and family.

Now to work on the negative parts of my self image, and to strengthen the positive traits I feel I have. I know this is a self evaluation, and some people may not see me this way at all, but seeing as I’m usually pretty hard on myself, I think I can start here, and work on some of the things I’d like to change. I’d like to most importantly work towards being the best person I can be for myself and others.